Yesterday and Today

Yesterday I was so emotional but glad that I was able to tell the one person I wanted to about what is going on with me.  I have had someone ask me incessantly what was wrong - that I had been too quiet lately.  I put a smiley face in the text and say that I have been super busy and sick a lot and that satisfies her.  That person doesn't see past the fake smiles anymore.  Oh, well.  I don't care to be honest with you.

I know what is going on or what has gone on is part of what is wrong.  In time, I know from experience, I will be okay emotionally.  I don't feel the deep ache and emptiness I felt last time.  I am a tough cookie.  I will be 'aight" as my grandmother has always told me lol.

I start my micro class today and I am super excited.  I am embarking on this new adventure in my life and it is one that gets me one step closer to my ultimate goal.  This one is going to take a lot longer than I had anticipated but that is okay.  You do what you have to do!

This new year is going to be a new start for me.  I hope to lose more weight (I have lost 10 lbs since I started working).  Once I find a new substitute for Pepsi, then I think 10 more lbs at least will come off easily.  I bought a Wii today which for me is GREAT exercise so that is to start as soon as it comes in.  I just want to be healthy and happy in this new year.

No more moping about choices I have made or how things are not the way I had anticipated.  There is a reason for everything and I am quite okay with that.

Thank you ... for everything.  We all have that person we can be 100 percent honest with in our lives and you are that person for me.  The good, the bad, and the ugly.  I love you dearly, my friend.